Anxiety

well........with only three nights left before my little play premiers, i finally saw a rehearsal with both actors involved.

ummmmm..... i don't feel great.

it's tech week and last night was the first joint rehearsal for the two actors. there's a lot of good going on in the piece.... but i think there's waaaaaay too much melodrama. (did i just type "way" with six a's?) now, granted. some of that is my fault. i just wish for actors to minimize the melodrama in the acting.

anyway....yes, yes, yes. i understand it's only ten minutes. but i imagined a more quiet ten minutes. a more reserved ten minutes. my characters don't want to talk. they have trouble completing thoughts. this production is much more angry than i imagined. i'm afraid the angry fag will come across as, well, an angry fag.

on the up side.... one of the directors showed up totally plastered this evening! she was fabulous.......falling down and crying and screaming at the techs. i didn't really like her much before i found out she was a lush. but now - somehow - that brings her up in my estimate.

it should be an interesting night of ten plays. there are some good pieces.... and some real stinkers. i have a feeling the one opening act two will be the best.

i'm hoping for my "shakespeare in love" moment opening night. someway.... i'm not sure how, really..... it will all come together.

it's a mystery.... (i hope.)

e.